I think I was scared when
I stopped picking up the phone
To my friends.
I think I was scared when
The exams came and I lost
Interest in life.
I think I was scared when
I went to those parties and
Drank like that.
I think I was scared when
I slept with those men I
Didn’t like.
I think I was scared when
I worked in those cruel jobs
And said I was fine.
I think I was scared when
I drank even more when he
Died, and then lied.
I think I was scared when
I took the prescription pills
And didn’t cry.
